(I don’t know how many parts there will be in this series as I prepare for Taiwan Short Term Missions, from here on TW STM.)
Since I’ve always wanted to be a missionary, my greatest fear of the upcoming TW STM is that I won’t like it, or I can’t handle it physically, or I have no love for the people, and have to face the truth that my desire to be a missionary was all based on a fanciful dream. If that’s the case, then what do I do with my life?? I don’t want to go on cruises and “live out my retirement” on the proverbial golf course.
Yes, I know I can be useful for God anywhere. But I want an adventure. I’ve lived a safe life – and that’s all good. But I want just a little adventure in God’s Kingdom.
At the same time, I am ambivalent – why do I want to work so hard? Why don’t I just take it easy instead of taking on challenges?? I can easily stay within my comfort zone, stay in America and I will be happy serving at my church for many more years. And perhaps that’s where God wants me.
So after all the analysis, I am content either way. I would like to live out my dream to be a missionary in a foreign country, but I am fine staying put. There’s plenty to do here that is a challenge to me.
“I have become all things to all people so that by all possible means I might save some.” 1Cor 9:22